On a new year's day, waking up with negative thoughts is horrid. My 2026 started on a sour note, bringing all the insecurities which I thought I had wiped out from my memory got to me with such force that I was disoriented to the extent of not wanting to start any day of my life. I wanted to disappear where nobody could recognize me.
With all the experience…with all the positivity churned out from the bitterness life offered, I was shell shocked to find that I am still not over with any of the insecurities that had plagued my mind for years. Now, this is an impediment and a burden I do not want to carry anymore.
My shoulders are tired…
I am exhausted…
How can I get over it?
People would tell you often that to stay positive, think about the things you love the most and it would manifest in your life.
What if your thoughts are too muddled that you could not even separate the wheat from the chaff?
The only remedy occurred to me after trying with much difficulty to wade in through my brain crammed with thoughts, was writing.
Start writing whatever comes to my mind.
And thus I decided to write. The moment I wrote the word ‘writing’ in the above sentence, my mind went blank. Now I really have to force myself to write. I don’t mind doing it if I do it consistently. Will I be able to do that is the question for I have started such writings very many times and stopped abruptly.
What would happen this time is the question.
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